Destiny

p/s: 我们就像是擦肩而过的陌生人 却又是最熟悉的。。。

Mastery of Photograph

Hehe ; ) This is my first project for the Environmental Design class.

Hope that you guys will like it. It took me a lot of time.

Especially thanks to my uncle, Yeongher, and Tiffany. You guys helped up me a lot, and I really appreciate it.

p/s: Please enjoy the video.

Happy Half A Year Anniversary

Hey peeps! How are you guys doing? I'm pretty busy recently, and yet I'm doing good though.

Today, Jan26, 2011, is my officially half a year that I have been in the United States. Maybe that is nothing to you guys. But for me, it is a special day for myself. I can still clearly remember the day when I was at Kuala Lumpur International Airport, and ready to fly over to here. Only my best friends came to send me off, and I do really appreciate that. My parent and my brother were in JB. In fact, I didn't want them to send me off because I don't like the atmosphere, and I know I can't hold my tears.

In order to celebrate this day, 26, I brought Yeongher, Euchin, and Jason to a Chinese restaurant, which is located in Chandler. Four of us are Malaysian. We were so happy and enjoy. But I felt a little bit upset during the dinner because I recalled of my family and friends in Malaysia. After I came to here, I realize that nothing is more important than God, my family and friends.

We went to Saigon, a Vietnamese Chinese Restaurant in Chandler. The price is reasonable and affordable. Guess what. $10.43 each person with 5 dishes. *Recommended*

p/s: Be strong, J.

Racing with time

Take a small break. Actually I'm in class now, and I'm so bored. You know what's Environmental Design? Nah, I'm taking this class for this semester. I thought I don't need to read textbook for this class, and yet I found out that I do need to do 3 projects, and I need to deal with so much works. Haiz it's annoying. I need to do a video for my first project. It's killing me.

I have been so busy like hell since last 2 weeks. I know I will have a hectic semester. I'm racing with time and my energy. Wish me luck and hope that everything will be going smoothly. I'm taking 6 subjects for this semester, pray that I can go through all of them well. Hope that you can see me still alive end of this semester. haha ; )

p/s: I need a big hug and shoulder.

Put your hands up

Put your hands up, or I will shoot you.

Unbelievable.. and eventually I got a chance to go Scottsdale Gun Club today with Yeongher. In fact, I had a plan for video shooting today for my first project for Environmental Design class. I wanted to go gun club for a long time, and I do really want to shoot. I think it is cool and awesome. Besides of that, my cousin gave me a card with free rental for handgun. So I decided to go there to try. When I walked into the club, it really impressed me. Wah! the first time I saw different kind of "real" guns are displayed on the wall. And there is a lot of men there. I took my courage and walked towards the counter and asked them. After that we watched the safety video and signed the paper. I paid $15 for the bullets with free rental handgun.

Scottsdale Gun Club

Rental Handgun

My bullets

He was teaching me how to fill the bullets into the case

I was so nervous when the time I was holding the gun. And I needed to fill the bullets myself. Luckily there was an assistant there, and he helped up me a lot, and he taught me how to use the gun and so on. Huuuu... It is pretty cool though. The funniest part was the bullet flew out and hit my head few times when I pushed the trigger. And the next guy who was standing beside me, his bullets hit my head as well. I love shooting ; ) It was my first time shooting with bullets, and I tried to aim the place that I wanted to shoot, but I failed. haha. It is kinda hard, I always missed, and yet I still shot 10 times within the range. hehe ; ) congrats to myself. =='''

What's the next thing to do? I'll figure it out.

p/s: Keep trying new things and challenge yourself.

I missed you.

Honestly I never thought that I could contact with you again. Like almost 5 years? I found your facebook and added you as friend. haha Like you said, "isn't it amazing?" Indeed. I'm so happy that we still can talk, even though just facebook messages. I have so much to tell you. You gave me thousand of memories that I will never forget for the rest of my life. You taught me those things that I did not know. I just want to thank you for everything you did for me. And I still owe you an apologize. I know it comes too late. But still, "I'm sorry, SK." Take care.

p/s: I missed you.

First day of School

hey darlings, do you miss me today? I'm freaking busy this few days, and preparing for the school starts. Obviously I got 2 classes today, but still I'm busy with meeting with my friends, printing all the notes for classes, helping EuChin to deal with his apartment, and so and so. And now I'm headach-ing, and it is killing me.

Let's me tell you guys something. I'm so glad that EuChin comes over here, and he makes me experienced a lot of things that I have not experienced before. I was thinking to move out to an apartment with some of my friends before, and now I realized that I'm so lucky and happiness to stay with my aunt and her family. I have saved a lot of troubles from registering internet, electricity, signing for agreement, purchasing the furniture, and so on. Even though I have experienced them before when I was in Subang, but still it was better than here, and it was easy to deal with. And yet he has to spend so much money, and apparently it is US dollar, not Ringgit. hahaha. The another reason why he needs to spend so much money is because we don't have social security number as an international student, so he needs to pay deposit. Social security number is an important issue in the United States, they use SSN to apply for banks and others. Opps by the way I will show you guys his apartment next time once everything is set. He bought the furniture from IKEA. hehe. ; )

First day of my second semester at Arizona State University. It was so good to meet again with my friends.

p/s: is nice to contact with you again, SK. take care. hugs

Sunset of Arizona

Hey peeps! I'm kinda busy this few days. I was helping my friend to find his apartment in tempe. And my brother's best brother is coming over here to visit me. Yeah I'm so happy because at least there is someone coming to visit me. He has been knowing my brother since kindergarden, and they are both 24 years old. So you can guess how many years they have been knowing each other. Even though he is my brother's friend, but still we can talk a lot. Indeed both of us are talkative and outgoing people.

I drove him around my campus and old town Scottsdale. After that we went to watch "The Fight" at Scottsdale Fashion Center. The interesting part was we went hiking at Gateway, which is near my house. In fact we went there for taking pictures of the beautiful sunset of Arizona. We hiked almost 1 hour, and found a place, and sat there for 20 minutes in order to see the sunset. We were so happy and excited. And we finished hiking around 630pm, and it was kinda dark, and I was pretty scare, and we could not find the way out at the beginning due to there are many other routes. Besides that we could not find my car because it was too dark and left only 2 of us. It was a really good experience and adventure though.

After that, we went to Hong Kong Restaurant, which I mentioned last few posts, for our dinner. We talked we laughed we gossiped.

Thanks Chin Hong Bro. Thanks for teaching me how to use my Nikon, and the tips for taking those "art" pictures.

Wish you have a safe flight to New York tomorrow and back to Malaysia safely.

Hugs ; )

p/s: All those pictures look awesome right? All are taken by me. ; )

I'm cared

I woke up early this morning because I needed to deal with the car insurance company. Other than that, I needed to go "Collision Specialist" for investigating my car's damages, and the person will take pictures of my car, and estimate the price for repairing my car. It is kinda complicated and a lot of stuff need to deal with. Luckily my uncle and aunt accompanied me all the time. I do really appreciate that. After I came back home, there was a guy called from car insurance company, and he needed to do a record with me about the whole process. I was kinda nervous. I was afraid that I might not understand what he said. hahaha. Besides that, my aunt told me the guy might trick me, so that they do not pay for my car's damages. Therefore I need to listen the questions carefully and answer them correctly, and it made me more nervous. ==''' And now I just need to wait for the old white lady to admit that she hit my car. Hopefully I can get the answer on Monday.

My aunt brought me to have lunch at Daphnes. It is a Greek restaurant.

Last night I went to Christina's house. She is my cousins' aunt. She is a lovely and kind woman. She treats me like her daughter, and she cares about me. I really appreciate her. She helps and teaches me a lot. And I feel comfortable to talk to her. She brought her daughter and I to Yogurtology last night. The place is awesome. American loves to eat yogurt, because it is healthy and low fat. hahaha. ; )

Thanks to you guys who have called me. Love you. I do appreciate that ; )

p/s: Even though I'm living in States without my parent, but still I'm cared.

Hang in there

I have many thoughts on my mind, and I just want to get it off my chest. I don't even know myself sometimes. I know there is something that we could not persist in if there is no way to achieve, and push ourselves too hard sometimes. As I grew up, I told myself that I can do thing like an adult, I know I can handle it well. But I'm wrong, I'm still like a little kid. You know why I love to blog? The reason is myself. I wanted to remind me all the things that I have done, and all those emotional struggles that I have been through, the ups and downs, and it's called life. Maybe when the time I'm 30 years old, I read back again the posts that I have written for the past 10 years, it will be very interesting. Hah... I am blogger. ; )

You know what. There is something that I don't like to tell others. I am jealous. She has a wonderful boyfriend, and he has beautiful girlfriend. And I? What do I have? Nope. I always hurt people, and I don't deserve to have someone to love me. Every time when people asked me about my boyfriend, and I answered them, "I'm sorry. I don't have boyfriend." They would ask me not to kidding with them. Haha. I don't afraid of loneliness, I don't afraid of doing things alone. But still I need someone to lean on, to hug in the cold weather, to wipe my tears when I cry. I don't know why I wrote something about this. Like Karho said, I don't need to pretend that I am strong all the time. I am such a loser. I hurt the people who love me deeply. I'm so sorry. How ironic and contradictory.

p/s: When the time comes, it comes. Hang in there, J.

Poor me

I have nothing to say to myself. I blamed on myself. I should not go out this afternoon. I should not go to Chase Bank. Why? Why it happened to me? Why it happened to Hartono family again? I got into a small case of car accident this afternoon. Even though it is not a serious car accident, but still I feel so guilty inner my heart. The reason I feel guilty is because there is a lot of things happened to Hartono family. And I do not really want to trouble my uncle and aunt again. Past few months my cousin got into a severe car accident, and his Lexus GS300 was gone. Besides that they needed to deal with the insurance company every day. Despite of that, when the time they needed to decide whether to buy new car or used car, and they had some arguments. It upset everyone. Eventually everything was settled down on Christmas Eve. Therefore, I feel so guilty because I need to trouble them again. Luckily my car's damage is not that worse, but still my uncle and aunt need to deal with the insurance company again. What the hack.

Tell you guys the story. The story is short though. I was driving slowly to somewhere after I went to the bank, and suddenly I heard a sound, it was not a good sound, and my car was hit at the back side. I turned my head back, and I saw an old white lady was reversing her car, and she dint see my car I guess because she dint pay attention when she was reversing!!! oh gosh!!! why??? Her car is perfectly fine. My car's damage is not that worse actually. Haizzzz poor me.

p/s: For some reasons, you cant avoid something that you don't wish to happen even how hard you have tried.

Horseman

Eventually I got the chance to ride on a horse. It is one of the thing-to-do in my life.

Yeah I am so happy today. I have learned the basic of riding a horse for one hour.

The place is called Macdonald Ranch and it is not far from my house though.

The starting was kinda scary, and I was so nervous because there was no one will hold the horse, and I needed to ride the horse by myself.

I had so much fun and I built the relationship with the horse, Rockey.

The cowboy, Chad, said that I have the potential and he wants to train me as a horseman. Woohoo.. kinda surprised me. He is a real good horseman.

Jocelyn and Chad

Another reason that I am so happy today is because I met up with my darling, Younghwa. We always have so much fun when we spend time together. You know what, even though sometimes we have communication problem, but still we can understand each other, and we cherish our precious friendship. We treat each other truly, that's why both of us can feel how real is our friendship. Thanks to God.

Thanks to you again my darling. Thanks for your presents and the lovely letter. You are such a sweet girl. Note to you, please do not forget our promise, we will travel together to mutual home countries someday. Love you so much, Younghwa. Hugsss

p/s: 得来不易的友情 应该好好珍惜