End of October

I was not happy with my school project yet I am happy now because my mom called me few minutes ago. She wants to go Macau with me on December during the time I go back to Malaysia. Oh yeah, my life is so good. ; ) I can see the bright.

So many things happened on October, no matter it was good or bad, now those unhappy things become past tense. Look forward, Shinn Jye! I am looking forward to the coming new month- November. Winter is around the corner. I am going to party hard this time. ; ))))

Let me tell you something. Sometimes we need to escape to a new place and breathe in the new air and blow out the bad air . Stop thinking about the troubles that you are having right now, you should give yourself some freedom and do something you want and enjoy your life instead. When you eventually realize how to live your life, you would definitely realize that all those problems that troubled you become nothing, and it will not stumble you.

So I learned my lesson. I should not get upset easily because of those meaningless words.

p/s: I love you, mom.

Border line.

Today is the day that I would never forget ever in my life. I experienced the situation when you know that you might have to die or encounter the worse thing that might happen to you. I was so scared and it did really freak me up. I could not scream and yell, I just pretended I am fine and stay calm. Can you imagine within the few seconds, I could only ask myself, "Omg what am I suppose to do?" I prayed so hard to my dear heavenly Father. I have so many things that I have not done yet. I have not found the right man yet, I have not gone back to Malaysia yet, I have not said goodbye to my family and friends yet. But everything that spins around my head suddenly stopped. I told myself that if this is my God's plan, I will accept it. I felt peace and calm immediately.

On the way driving back home, I cried. I could not hold my tears anymore. I am so weak, I know. Men are fragile. I realize that when things happen, men just can't do anything about it but accept it. We all know that we might die someday, it is impossible to get rid of it. People, please cherish your life, appreciate what you have, and stop complaining.

p/s: I need a hug from you.

I wish nothing but the best for you.

Finally...finally... I am done with two important midterms. I still have one more midterm for Marketing class. Although it is online class, the exam is pretty hard and high quality. Never mind, I will see. hehe Oh yeah, I got the return ticket back to States. Yet the price is so damn expensive. Anyways it is a good thing that I finally got the return ticket! I was so worried about it, now I am relieved. Thanks my dear mom! I love you always. Now I just cannot wait to go back home and see my family and friends! I would definitely take a lot of pictures and make you guys jealous! haha. I am so naughty, I know!

Jacopo Bettinelli

Friday night, I was skyping with my Italian friend until 4am. He is the one whom I met with him in Venice through couch surfing. How amazing it is! He is now in Beijing, China. Sometimes I just could not understand why "angmo" likes Chinese stuff. hahaha. I like when he speaks Mandarin, his accent is cute. One of my Russian friends is also interested at Chinese. When I asked him why, he just said, "Because I like it!" Good answer! Sometimes you do not need to have a proper reason for certain things you like because there is no explanation. ; )

Aweeee I am getting fat!

Last Saturday night, I brought Monika to my Arabian friend's apartment. Jason came after we got there for a while. Aweee it was an awesome night. Even though I am not good at hookah-ing, spending time with different kinds of people is always the best thing to do! I met with other 3 Arabian, and they all are nice and hilarious! hahaha. I am pretty sure they are really wealthy too! Too bad that I needed to leave earlier, so one of them drove Monika back to her dorm. She told me that the Arabian drives a brand new convertible beemer. Arrrrr Lets hang out together soon! Oh yeah, we are going to have Arabic food in Phoenix. They said the restaurant is authentic. hahaha. So... I guess I have places to stay when I visit to Saudi Arabia. hehehe

Monte Carol, Monaco.

I watched Monte Carlo last night with Angela after we were done reading tons of case studies. It was a good movie though. Now I wanted to visit Monte Carlo in Monaco. I remember that one of my friend's website talked about Monaco.

http://www.rostrum.no/reisereportasje-den-franske-rivieraen-og-monaco

But it is written in Norwegian. It is a good post though. You guys should read it.

Besides that, I also found another blogspot about travel.

http://themustvisitcities.blogspot.com/

If you are just like me who love to travel around the world, I am sure you will like these posts.

p/s: I am always waiting for you to turn back and hug me.

Simplify.

Sometimes I just wish that everything can be simplified. I don't even need to think about it.

Yet thing just goes complicated every time. It bothers me.

Can you tell me what you are thinking about? What exactly holds you back?

You make me so confused.

p/s: Drive the car, play the music loud, roll down the windows, and enjoy the cold wind.

I am coming home.

I bought the air ticket back to Singapore last night without my mom's authorization. I did mention to her about this few days ago, and she was thinking to let the travel agent to deal with it. She is now in China, and I did not want to wait for another 2 weeks when she comes back from China to decide. So I decided for myself. I was so nervous and afraid that I might not get the ticket because the date is so close, the price keeps fluctuating and all airlines are fully booked. Luckily, I got one way ticket back to Singapore, I just leave the rest to the agent to deal with it.

I do hope that I am doing the right choice. The ticket is pretty expensive, yet I will make it worthy. I am sure. I just can't wait to go back since I have not been home for a year! Anyways I am looking forwards to it!

p/s: You misunderstood. I am sorry.

我很努力地想要成为一个很独立的女生

但是我发现不可能

我很努力地控制不想让自己爆发

很倔强地 很不服输地

我真的很不想生气

我为什么不可以发表我的意见

我为什么要这样的委屈自己

明明不高兴 还要假装微笑 无所谓地点头

I need shots.

I had a really great night with my friends. I am so sorry that I gotta go back home. What the stupid curfew! Screw it! I know I spoiled the entire mood when everyone was so excited wanting to watch a movie, and I said I gotta leave. So we all ended up going back home. I am so sorry about it. We wanted to go pub, and then I am not old enough to get in. Screw the drinking age! By the way, I know you guys were being nice to me, and you guys were just saying the positive side of me when I asked you guys what do you think about me. To be honest, I am neither that perfect as you all said nor even a good friend actually. You know what, we truly need some drinks to say something from the bottom heart. We all need courages to say something out. I wish we all were in Europe, so that we could drink some shots and then talk.

You seem like you know what you want, and you are working on it. I am truly happy for you. You never know that I actually care so much about you. I am trying to keep all the memories between you and me somewhere in my heart, may be at a small and dark corner but it means a lot to me.

p/s: Can I get married when I am 25 years old?