New Year Eve

Hey Hey Hey

This will be the last post for the year 2010. There are 2 more hours and it will be the new year of 2011.

I am so freaking tired now and all my muscles are in suffering and it is so painful.

I just got back from ski at Snowbowl in Flagstaff. Hey come on, peeps. Besides desert and cactus, there has snow in Arizona, ok? hahaha. So, stop making fun of me. haha ; )

I will upload the photos for the next post because I am so lazy right now, and I am planning to go to sleep now.

My aunt told me that we will go to ski again tomorrow, but I do not really want to.

Haiz... my legs and arms are so freaking ached, and I can't really stand for it.

But I have to go.

I wanted to thank my uncle for teaching me how to ski and you have so much patience for me.

Thanks. Hugs.

Today is New Year Eve, and yet it is without my family. We used to celebrate and countdown together at restaurant or hotel. I missed them so much.

Anyways I am going to thank everyone who has passed by in my life, and I will always remember you guys no matter who treated me nice or bad. haha. seriously..

Despite of that, I want to apologize to those whom I have hurt you before or I have done something wrong to make you unhappy. I am sincerely to say "I am sorry", I hope that you guys can forgive me.

Thanks dad and mom, and yet I am sorry.

Life is full of setbacks, but we need to learn how to grow mature no matter ups and downs, and do not give up. There is always another door open for you.

Happy New Year 2011.

Good night, peeps.

xoxo

p/s: you know I love you.

It's snowing

It was snowing this late afternoon around 245pm in Scottsdale. It was so beautiful. But it was just snowing for a while and then gone. We were so happy and put our hands in the air and touched the snow. I was so happy and surprised because I was told it is rare to see snow in Scottsdale or Phoenix here. I was jealous that some of my friends in other states, like Iowa and New York, could see snow in front of their houses or through the windows, and made the snowmen, and played the snow fight outside their dorms. I cannot do that, but it is does not matter to me, as long as I could see snow fall from the brighter sky here. Unfortunately I could not take any pictures of it because it was so tiny, and the sky was too bright.

Neuschwanstein Castle, Germany

I remember that the first snow I saw was in Germany. The day was so dull and chill, and we were visiting the Neuschwanstein Castle. For a little kid who had never seen snow before, you know how excited I was? I was so touched and peaceful at that moment, and I screamed in my heart. I will never forget the feeling even until now.

I will go ski at Snowbowl, Flagstff with my cousins tomorrow morning. Hopefully the road will not be closed, and it depends on the road conditions, which is caused by the weather. We went to a ski shop this evening to buy the ticket and rent the ski package. $48 for the ticket and $20 for the rented ski boots and poles. I pray that I will not fell down too many times tomorrow, or else you will see a cripple, and that will be I. haha. ; ) We tried the ski jacket, ski trouser, gloves, hat and ski glasses. Wow I became so plump and heavy in a sudden, I could not even walk faster.

I stopped reading Narnia this two days and I kept watching Hong Kong dramas. I think it is the time to read Narnia again.

"Now began the happiest times that Caspian had ever known. On a fine summer morning..." quoted by book fourth of Narnia-Prince Caspian, Chapter 6-The people that lived in hiding.

Take care, peeps.

Hugsss

依然是朋友

我不小心看到了你的部落格

哈 其实没什么啦

心里突然觉得很难过 心会痛

才知道原来自己不算什么 其实我也是最近发现到的

你也不需要自责还是难过什么的

我知道也许你只是想默默的

我无权过问 你也不需要得到我的同意

所以没什么的

不管怎样 我们依然是好朋友

是吧？

Bear with me

I just do not want to think about it anymore.

Please let me enjoy the rest 3 weeks for my winter break.

Just let it be, and hopefully the outcome will not be so bad.

My dear heavenly Father, I leave all my sadness and pain to you. Please rescue me.

I just want to be a passionate teenager and I know I am no longer "teen" anymore for the coming year.

Every time I feel stressed and vexed, my headache will come to kill me then.

You headache, please stay away from me.

I should consult doctor I guess since my mom told me that my head was hit when I fell down from stairs with the baby seat when I was small.

Let's talk about something happy. Yeahhhh I am going to ski with my cousins this week.

Perhaps this coming Thursday or Saturday, depends on the weather in Flagstaff.

Despite of that, I will watch Narnia with Hartono family this week as well.

Opss I need to check the time later.

2011 is coming!!!

I need to prepare myself to welcome new year's coming.

xoxo

Arghhh

Arghhhhhhhhhhhh

ASU drives me crazyyyyyyyyyyyyy. I will become a nut sooner or later.

I would rather you just kill me instantly.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas my darlingsssss...

I went to church for Christmas Eve Party last night. It was fun and yet I was pretty upset. I missed my family and I used to spend time with them during Christmas eve. We used to go hotels or restaurants to count down and celebrate Christmas. Haha. It does not work here, and they do not count down. hahaha. sounds silly. The true meaning for Christmas is not about Christmas presents. And yet it is traditional here to present gift to your family members and your friends. Just like to decorate the Christmas tree together with your family members. This is my first Christmas in States, but there is no snow in Arizona. Arghhh sad face. I will try to celebrate Christmas next year in other state which will have snow then. hahaha.

Lirong and his grandmom. Argh made me reminded of my grandmom and my grandmom's cooks.

Today is Christmas. My aunt held Christmas party at 5pm at our own house and she invited some church friends. Besides that she prepared a lot of traditional American food, especially Turkey. haha. Turkey again? I remembered we ate too much turkey during thanksgiving.

My lovely aunt was preparing croissants

Turkey again

0% alcohol? argh I wished it can make me drunk and go to bed.

I finished reading the third book of Narnia. Congrats to myself. haiz I feel bored at home. How come? I would prefer the school has started now. haha. So that I can meet my lovely friends. Life is sucks without friends. haha. You know I will never forget you guys who in Malaysia, and I always miss you guys. Every time you guys ask me when will you come back, and my answer would be I have no ideas, nor this winter break and the summer break next year. I know it is disappointing. Hugssss.

Tell you guys a secret. haha. I dreamt about a guy last night, but I do not know who is he. He said something to me, and we become boyfriend and girlfriend then. hahaha. Who is the guy??? I want to know so badly. Why I dreamt something like that huh? I wanted to go Hong Kong. Maybe I watched too many Hong Kong dramas. And I realized that Hong Kong guys are not bad actually. **cough cough

~Merry Christmas~

Airplane

I went back to school this afternoon for doctor appointment at 4pm.

Nah I am not sick and I am pretty fine tho.

The reason I visited the doctor is because the health insurance.

My aunt said I spent $600++ for the health insurance and I should visit the doctor, even though I am not sick.

Therefore I went there just for body check up and made another appointment for blood test.

Since I have high cholesterol which is abnormal for a teenager. haha.

We should take good care ourselves and concern about our diet, and do more exercise.

Actually I am reminding myself. haha. I am the one who is the disobedient child.

I enjoyed sitting beside the stove and raised my legs up. haha.

Wow there is no one at school besides the staffs

How quiet it was, and it was kinda different from the school days and you needed to dodge and avoid from the riders and the skaters.

The weather was colder than last few days and I wore short pants to school

Unfortunately I did not feel really cold and yet I did enjoy it. ; )

I looked upon the sky and I saw there was a lot of airplanes and they were flying through the clouds, and you could see the clouds became a straight line and sometimes you could see different shapes.

Argh... I wish I could take a flight to a place if there is a possible.

I love Arizona and yet I just do not want to stay here for my winter break.

I am jealous. Honestly.

I just wanted to escape and run away. Please take me away to a secret place.

Airport is not far from my school. haha.

Maybe one day after my class I will rush to airport and buy air ticket if I have enough impulses and courages.

You know I always do crazy stuff. ; )

But I am old enough I guess. I am a rational kid. hehe.

May your heart rejoices because you have heard the good news and responded to the Christ's Love.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year 2011.

*Make wishes* Nah.. secret..

Perplexed

I have a lot of things on my mind. I do not know. I could not understand myself sometimes. This second I have an idea in my mind; while the next second I will try to find an excuse to myself for not doing it. I lost my mind sometimes. I hated myself for being like that. I feel so vexed and perplexed this few days, and yet I am trying to get rid of it. I tried to control my temper and emotions. Luckily no one has gotten killed by me yet. haha. Please do not ever step across my line.

Maybe I am too bored at home? Not really actually. I finished reading 2 books of Narnia within 5 days. It exceeds my expectation which I have predicted before. And now the third book of Narnia is in progress. Hopefully I can finish it earlier, so that I can read other books that I bought during thanksgiving. Every time I finish reading the books in English written makes me feel fulfilled and content.

Chief recommended crab

Curry tofu noodles and four seasons bean.

My uncle and aunt brought me and Tif to a Vietnamese seafood restaurant in Chandler this afternoon. She ordered the chief recommended crab for me. Woo it is delicious indeed. The taste of crab meat is fresh and sweet with the sauce, and it tastes just likes the chinese restaurants' style in Malaysia. Besides the crab, the curry tofu noodles and the four- seasons beans are tasty as well. Yummy yummy. Well the price is "appetizing" too. haha.

I don't know why you hesitate every time you are near to me.

Family

Talked with my dad and my brother just now.

I am so happy!!!

I'm waiting for my mom come back from China

can't wait to talk to her.

I realized that how close we are, even though we are far apart.

I love my dad mom and brother so much.

Nothing else will be more important than my family.

I am so proud to be your daughter and sister.

I am so proud to have you to be my parents and brother.

Love you till the max.

Hugsss ♥ ♥ ♥

不知怎么的

不知怎么的 最近的我很想爸爸妈妈和哥哥

不知道他们有没有也一样的想念在远方的我呢

昨晚 坐在车里 听着the truth that you leave 看着车窗外深蓝的天空 脑海里却浮现着家人的容貌

不禁让我回忆起小时候的我 或许那是我最快乐的童年回忆

当独自住在别人的家 看着别人的小孩和他们的父母闹 笑著聊天

我竟然选择默默地看着他们 心里想的都是我的家人

眼泪会自个儿流进心里

人实在是太渺小 人生实在是太短暂

说来就来 说走就走 人活在这世上到底是为了什么

这话题其实也没什么好探讨的 每个人都有不同的想法和见解

去了教会将近4个月 让我认识了上帝

说我了解了吗 其实我也不知道 应该要用脑想 还是用心感受

我似乎失去了方向 站在四面都是树林里 找不到方向 找不到记号带我离开这束缚的地方

相信耶稣会带来永恒的生命 那我的家人呢 他们会去那里

那我宁可留下来陪他们

如果一开始没有生命 或许不会这么的痛苦

人一生中最害怕的是什么

等待死

很可笑吧

有太多太多的疑问 有太多太多的要面对

人生忙忙碌碌的 是为了什么 为了生活吗

我读书 读了这么多年 还有多两年就大学毕业

现在的我竟然夸张到 烦恼以后要怎样找工作 会不会没人要雇佣我

很傻吧我

或许我就是那种人 事情还没到就开始烦这个担心那个的

我还傻到想找一个人能够养得起我又很爱我的人嫁掉算了

自以为自己很坚强很独立的人 其实最没有用的就是我

我想逃 却不知道要往哪里跑。。。

男人心

男人有时好比洋葱一样 要想看到洋葱的心就需要一层一层去剥。

但是女人在剥的过程会不断流泪 剥到最后才知道，

原来洋葱是没有心的。

By Mandy

Cheesecake Factory

Hmn.. I just got back from Chandler Fashion Center with my dearest Younghwa. Knowing you is one of the best parts at ASU.

Cheesecake Factory at Chandler Fashion Center

Fish n Chip

the taste is really good ; ) I recommend it

We went to Cheesecake Factory to have our lunch and dessert ; )

It was my second time, while the first time was in San Jose with Chong Pin.

He brought me there when I first came to San Francisco on MAY2010.

Cheesecake Factory makes me reminded of him, and I realized that I missed him so much.

I can still clearly remember the first day we met at Krispy Kream at Times Square Plaza, Malaysia, when he came back from States.

We contact less and lesser. I know he is kinda busy with his works yet he is doing good I guess.

Hopefully I can meet him soon. He is such a nice guy to me and he helped up me lots when I need someone to listen to me. Besides that, my friend and I emailed him our essays and he helped us to correct them when I was studying in Inti. Haha. kinda weird huh? Yes it is true.

By the way, I just wanna to thank him for everything.

Hugs ♥

Chong Pin

Back to the topic today ; )

Younghwa is going back to Korea with her sister tomorrow morning. I wish that they will have a safe flight back to Korea, and back to States again on JAN 2 next year.

Take care my dear ; ) I will be here to welcome you back.

Hugs ♥

I'm done

Yeah!!! I am officially done with all my finals.
What is the next thing to do???
no party??? arghhhh sad face TT
I was supposed to go to Sky Habor International Airport after my exam today.
I was supposed to go back Malaysia today.
and now I am blogging to tell you guys how pity I am.
No matter how wish me have a wonderful winter break with my aunt's family in Scottsdale.
Hopefully I can go ski with my cousins if there is enough snow in Flagstaff. Or else I have gotta to stay at home for the whole winter break.
Besides that I wish my uncle can bring me to Los Angelas to hunt Asian food.
oh my gosh I am seriously carving Malaysian food.


Anyways wish you guys have a good winter break.
recharge yourself and fight for the coming new semester.
hugs

Please come closer to me

Since when Arizona becomes hotter? I can even wear T-shirt and short at outside. Argh.. sad face. I do really want it gets colder, even though I know every morning I will get freeze by things. Time flies, as we always say, I still have one more final to go. Hopefully I can score well. Seriously I do not know why I feel so down and a little bit upset. I should go back Malaysia on Dec 13th, right after my final, for my original plan. Yet I decided not to go back, because my mom said it will cost her a lot, if I still insisted want to visit my dear Pei Cheng in London next year summer. Every time I heard my friends who are going back to their home countries after they finish their exams, and it makes me jealous. Meanwhile, some of my friends' families will come over here to visit them, and it makes me more jealous. Argh, I am seriously need a big hug. I feel nothing even though my final is going to finish by Monday. How could I go through this winter break? Tears drop. Sob sob. I know I am a big girl now.

Pei Cheng and I.. high school time.. We have been knowing each other for 7 years.

we are curry fish head lovers!!! and he can't live without me because I am his GPS and he is my driver. Perfect huh bro?

We took this photo last year during his summer break when he was studying in Nottingham, England. At that time I was studying in Inti. sweet sweet ; )

I bought a bag from Banana Republic in order to compensate myself from being alone during the winter break. Haha what's a suck excuse! I am looking forward to the coming semester, yet the semester is just ended. Yeah Euchin is coming here for the spring intake, we are gonna studying together at ASU, just like the Inti time. Unfortunately there is no bak kuh teh, no BBQ Plaza, no Chong Qin Chili Chicken and no Curry Fish Head. I remembered that we always hang out together after class, and we always hunt food together. oh my gosh I missed those time so much. I missed Subang's life so much. Maybe the place is much more suitable for me.

Euchin and I

we took this photo this year before I came to here.

at the familiar place, cafeteria at Inti; eating the familiar food, mi sedap.

I do not know how many people asked me whether I will continue to stay here after I graduate. Seriously I do not know. I am perplexed and confused. haiz. Maybe it is still early to talk about, yet 2 years is not that long enough. In my bottom heart, I know God will lead me and tell me how to do. I just need to worry about today's matters and the rest just leave to God.

I missed my mom and dad. I am not a good daughter. I seldom call back recently. Maybe I do not know what to say to them? besides how are you recently, I do not know what else I can say. Or maybe it will make me miss them so much after I hang up the call? I cannot find my brother recently, seems like he disappeared. I heard my friend told me he is doing roadshow. What the hack is that? who can tell me? I heard another friend said that he has a girlfriend? What the hell is she? I do not want to hear from other people, and I hate that I do not know anything of him, even though I am his sister. Gosh. On your skype please!!!

Hey babe come closer to me, I got something want to tell you ♥

Buck up guys.

Yeah I got the email from my dear Professor.

I am so happy now. Thank you Professor. ; )

I gotta concentrate on my next exam, sociology tomorrow.

I still have 2 more exams to go. Can't wait to finish my finals.

Thanks for those who care about me and thanks for your concerns.

Especially thanks to my dear aunt, uncle, and my cool cousin, Kevin.

They made food to cheer me up and gave me encouragement.

I love you guys so much. Hugs.

Buck up guys.

All the best and Good Luck!

Please give me a chance

I am super sad now, can't even tell my feelings right now either. And I know I did try my best and I did study hard for Management, I spent so many days to study and take notes for it. Yet I screwed it up and I almost can get an A's. I cried when I saw the final result, and I just can't believe that. Honestly I am not showing off my result. Because I did put a lot of efforts on it, and I did pretty good in all the assignments. That's why I am so sad. I do hope that my professor will give me 3 more points. Please give me a chance.

You know you love me

A short post for today

yeahhh I have 3 more exams to go and I will be done for this semester.

I did pretty good for my chemistry and computer science today I guess.

but I know I did some mistakes due to my careless. haizzz ; (

thanks Jason Lee for your accompany and shared the questions with me ; ) hugs

and I will go polytechnic campus tomorrow for my last Management Class since every Tuesday I need to drive 40 minutes to there for only 1 class. It costs me lots for the petrol.

$3++ per gallon, and I almost spend $80 per week. arghhhh I can use the money to buy stuff and food.

Yet it is worth actually since I have been to so many places in Arizona especially shopping malls compares to those who only know some places around their house.

and I know I am luckier than them. Thanks to my parents.

it is good and bad actually.

Like me, I am the kind of person who cannot stay at home for a long time, and it will drive me crazy.

I am doing good so far. I know I am having finals right now, yet I do not really feel stress.

I will try my best to do it well and get good results.

Anyways wish you guys who are having finals now, Good Luck guys.

All the best ; )

thanks Wilson, you are always being nice to me. hugs. thanks for your luck.

xoxo you know you love me

December, 2010

Woohoo December is coming and the final is around the corner.

and yeah my final week is the coming week! oh my gosh is next week!!!

I think I can handle them well. I gotta study hard yet I am still in holidays mode.

After the thanksgiving break, I was like "argh, I do not want to go to classes!!!"

the short break was not enough for me though.

I was kinda happy and excited after the chemistry lab class due to I had a presentation for the lab poster today.

I was so nervous since it was my first time to present in front of the white people.

Yet I did it and I was so released after the last sentence, which is "So basically we could determine what the liquids are based on the pH values and its solubility."

actually no one really paid attention when the students were presenting, but only the TA (teaching assistant).

Despite that, I decorated the christmas tree with Kevin last night.

It was my first time to build up the christmas tree and decorate it with the decorations.

it was so fun and Kevin told me that it is the traditional occasion for the family to decorate the christmas tree and the house with the family members in the United States.

Every family will spend so much money on decorating their houses and the christmas tree.

Honestly, the little decorations things are so expensive, and it costed me lots.

Yet I was so happy after I had finished decorating the christmas tree.

and I wish I could do it every year. Yeah!

My dear aunt and uncle are on vacation now. So yeah, I need to drive my little cousin, Tiffany to school every morning.

It is killing me to wake up in the early morning with the freaking cold weather.

at that moment my alarm rang, my thought was "what? so fast? I just went to sleep and now I gotta wake up?"

Arghhh, I struggle every morning on my bed, and cover my head with the blanket.

and now I am afraid that I will get cold by the floor, the water tap, and the toilet.

when the moment you sit on it, it will freeze you, and you will so energetic all of sudden. haha.

Narnia (7 books)and the CDs for my winter break

actually I have no special feeling for the coming winter break since I have no plan.

Besides I might go ski with cousins, I think I probably will stay at home and study the novel.

my dear uncle lent me his favorite book, which is Narnia, and the CD as well.

so that I can listen to the CD while reading the book, hope that it could help me to improve my English.

and I will learn how to take the professional photos with my new camera as well

For now, that's my plan for my winter break.

so yeah let's see how it will go.

I will be so alone for the holidays and that is why I have no feeling or excitement because all my best friends will not in town.

Yeongher's family will come over here soon, and she will spend most of the time with her family to Colorado, LA and so on. Besides that she will go Florida with her friends as well.

Younghwa will go back Korea to visit her parents and friends.

Xiao Mi will go back Taiwan too.

arghhhh!!! sad face TT

Please date me if you are free. haha ; )

went to Yeongher's house after the class

Mi Sedap with fried eggs for our dinner tonight ; )

Good night, peeps!

xoxo