Leaving

I have been Arizona for almost 2 months

and now I am getting used to it

the lifestyle here, the educational system here as well

Besides that, I have some American friends and other international friends

like me from other countries

and I realized that the United State is so complicated and it is out of my expectation

and I did feel scared and nervous when I talked to those guys who can speak English so fluently at first

actually I will still feel nervous sometimes

and the way they spoke and sometimes I did not really get them

remember that the first time I watched movie- salt with YeongHer at Fashion Square

I could understand what were they talking about if I really paid attention to their speaking

if not and I could barely understand

since I have already used to the chinese subtitle..

and I felt bad and shamed sometimes

During the first couples weeks in Arizona

I missed home and my friends in Malaysia so badly

and I almost cried every night

at that time I wished that I could fly back Malaysia

still remember that the scenes when I walked into the immigration at KLIA

thanks for those friends and brothers who came to send me off

I did not dare to look back you guys

and I know that how much I need to get through this to leave you guys

I did not feel regret to come the United State

as you guys who know me for few years

and you know that I am an independent and strong girl

I told myself I got to be strong and make proud of you guys and my parents

and now I can fully understand my brother's situation and his feeling when he was studying at New York

YeongHer and I cried in the plane and after 17 hours, we eventually reached Arizona

What I have gone through and I wont forget and it will etch in my memory for the rest of my life

and I want to thank my aunt and my uncle and my cousins as well

letting me to stay at their home

and they are taking good care of me

thanks for bringing me to Sedona, Prescott, and some of the places in Arizona

and I really appreciated it

I love you guys so much

Leaving my home country to a place which I do not really familiar with

and it needs a great courage

and I do really admire those senior who came here for studying

and I am going the same way right now

bless you guys

hugs and take care

Love