I love Arizona

A short update for today. I am so happy and excited. I don't even know why. I was suffering last few weeks, and eventually I found myself back- the original Tan Shinn Jye. I just want to thank you, my dear Lord. You are the one who fill my heart, and save my soul back. Thank you so much.

For those who are really care about me, I just want to say thanks to you guys. Thanks for your encouragement and supports. I love you guys so much. I am fine now, so do not worry about me k.

I am having healthy life right now. I have been so lazy for the whole winter. And now I start to do some sports. hehe. Swimming and jogging are my favorite sports.

I went to jogging this morning by myself at the lake side Tempe ASU. It is an awesome place. Actually this is the lake side that I mentioned on my last post about I cried for my bad result. hehe. I was so silly, I know. I really love to go this place, it seems like it can give me energy and this is a good place for calming yourself.

I went to Scottsdale Quarter with Yeongher after school. It is just opened recently. It is really an amazing place.

Actually we wanted to watch a movie instead of walking around. But when we saw the price, hahaha, we ran away. It is SUPER EXPENSIVE! what the hack $17.50 for premium class. We have not checked the price for Gold class yet. hahaha yet I do really want to go there and watch the movie someday. I am just curious how PREMIUM is it. hehehe. I am waiting for Chong Pin. hehehe.

My favorite shop in United States.

p/s: what is about L.O.V.E ?

Do you know?

p/s: I'm pretending I'm good.

When you are with me

Sometimes we are disappointed at the results and even our life. I used to aim to be perfect on everything. I am so tired of my life that I am having right now. I am surrounded with tons of assignment and tests. I studied almost everyday and every single nights. I quitted pps, and I gave up the chances to hang out with friends. I gave up the life that I am supposed to have. I always tell my friends that we should cherish and appreciate our life, and live till fullest. I am not qualified to say something like that because I was not doing it. I surrendered my wonderful life to assignment and tests. I know it is good to have good grades, and receive the honor from university. I got good grades and honor from my university last semester, and I was really proud of myself because I know I can do it. I am having 6 subjects this semester, it is not too hard though. But I pushed myself way too hard, and all my mind was about how could I get As. This is not what I really want. At least I know I was not that kind of person who put grades in the front of everything. Honestly I cried in the class, in the bus, and even I sat at the lake side with friend. I could not hold my tears. I was totally lost in the mist.

From now on, I will do my best on my studies, and I am not going to judge my ability and doubt myself again. I do not want to be a grade's slaver anymore. Tan Shinn Jye, you deserve to be happy.

p/s: thanks for tonight. I feet secure when you are with me.

It was all a Dream

一切都变了

我知道。

是我要你往前走

然而 我自己却停留在那里等你回头。

我没有期待什么

我想把心里话都告诉你

我却没有勇气

我学会伪装自己 掩饰自己的情感

假装无所谓

倔强地把头抬起 不让眼泪往下流。

I will keep my promises.

Hello peeps! How are you guys doing? I have three assignments due coming week, and I have one midterm on next week. Arghhhh I am around with my assignments and tests this semester. I do really want to take a break. Haha. And now I am taking a small break, and blogging about my recent life.

Honestly I have devoted myself to my studies. I spend so much time on studying, and I try to get good grade. Yet is this what I really care? Before I came to States, I did not care so much on my results. I told myself that I have already tried my best on my studies, and I would not care so much no matter what grades I got. At least I have done my responsibility as a student. I used to skip classes (especially English class) and go to Klang to have Bak Kuh Teh with bunch of friends. Haha. But now, I am changed and I do not really want to become a person who cares so much on grades. It is somewhat not like myself compares to my life when I was in Malaysia. I do not mean that I was not a good student when I was in Malaysia. What I am trying to say is I was the person who did not really care so much on my results, no matter it was good or bad. I do not want "Assignment and Tests" to rule my life. God, please help me.

You know what. I have promised some of my friends at ASU that I will have lunch or dinner sometimes with them. And I broke the promise. Since the school has started, we still have not had a lunch or dinner. I do really want to hang out with you guys, yet I do not have time. I am so sorry. You know I cannot go back home late. Haha. Anyways I will keep my promises my dear friends. Okie?

Oh yeah I wanted to recommend you guys a good movie- Sanctum.

Use this link http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sanctum_(film) to find out the plot.

The main character-Josh, he is so handsome and fit. He is Australian. : )

The curry chicken is fantastic

Garlic Nam

Indian Tea

Last Thursday I went to have Indian cuisine for dinner with Euchin at Delhi Palace at Tempe. The food is so delicious and awesome. I was so happy and I felt like I was at Darusalam (I used to go there yamcha with friends during late night).

This is my certificate for attending the driving school.

Haha I went to driving school in the early morning yesterday. The class was pretty fun and I did not fell asleep at all. It was only 4 hours, and I learnt a lots from the class. We watched some videos, and it gave a big impact on me. How dangerous and scary if you over speed, change lane without signals, pass the red light, and the passengers sit in the car without seat belt. I watched the videos and pictures, which how people got into accidents. I am sure you will freak out when you watch the videos. So please drive safely and take responsibility when you drive with kids, and always care for other people. People are losing their life because of your inattention and same to yourself.

Curry Chicken

Salmon snacks

Thanks to Christina for the wonderful dinner last night. She taught me how to cook curry chicken because I failed for the first time. Haha. We had so much fun and I enjoyed spending time with you. I really like your home made salmon snacks. It was so tasty. It is crispy outside and soft inside.

I gotta take a shower first and start to do my case analysis.

p/s: I miss you ; )

What a life!

I used to update my blog once or twice a week. I am so freaking busy that I can't even catch a breathe. Can you imagine how busy I am? Honestly I am quite enjoy it. May be I am a freak. haha. I just finished my test for supply chain management. It was not hard though, but I made some careless mistakes. Arghhhhh!!! I hate myself. I told myself that just forget about it, at least you learn something right. But I tell you what, a little point can kill your whole course. That's why I am trying to do well on my assignment and test. It stresses me a lot. I have geography of Europe test tomorrow, and I have map quiz on Saturday. And I have a meeting for making a chair for the Environmental Design class tomorrow evening. Ohhh I need to go driving school in the early morning on Saturday. See, I have so much things to do.

I went to shop with Euchin last Friday at Tempe Market. Woohoo both of us spent so much money. I bought a jacket at G by Guess. Eventually I bought it back since I had aimed for it for a long time ago. I was so happy and excited. I had not shopped for a period, so it is okay to shop once a while right? haha. I made an excuse for myself. Whatever!

I just can't wait for the spring break; however I can't go to New York and Chicago this time. Yet I am sure that I can visit you guys someday after I graduate. Since my mom and aunt said that I am a young lady. But how do I know that when I am old enough to explore the world? I think I am always a kid for you no matter how old I am or even when I am an old woman. haha. Anyways Chong Pin is coming Arizona to visit me! How sweet he is! I am going to go gun club and horse back riding again during the spring break. I will figure out what else I can do.

I don't know why I keep missing you recently, and your face keeps showing out on my mind. Something wrong with me huh? I just want to tell you that "I miss you." I am wondering that do you miss me too? haha ; ) Anyways I will keep this in my heart.

p/s: "Come, let me do this for you."

Marriage

Every time I go to Yeongher's house to have lunch or dinner, it makes me to think about marriage. Her sister loves to cook, and she always cook Malaysian food for us. I do really appreciated it. Thanks my dear sis by the way. And you know what, the sister and her husband are really sweet, and makes me thought that marriage is not that bad actually. Haha at least you need to find a right man right? I am wondering who will be my husband, who is the luckiest guy. hahaha I realized that some of my friends have found their loves recently. And... how about me? Actually I'm not that hunger to have a boyfriend. Yet it is a good thing to have someone to love you and take care of you right? Indeed.

I'm going to turn 20 this coming April. Sooner or later I'm going to step on the real life. It is kind of depressing, and it stresses me up. May be you think I'm to young to think about it. But I'm sorry, because I'm the kind of person. I'm perplexing about my future, and that makes me to do some actions. In fact, I'm the kind of person who needs the sense of security that makes me to stand for the life. I hate the feeling when I don't know what I'm going to do next. I love to plan thing ahead, and sometimes I have back-up plans. Yet for my future, I really don't know. Getting a job in States is pretty hard at this time. And I have not confidence because I can't speak well in English, and that is my weakness. Oh man, that is sad. Sometimes I wonder why I can't speak well and fluent like other people do. Haiz sad face. Anyways, like all my friends always say to me, "Come on Shinn Jye, take it easy." hahaha

Last thing to say, I have wasted too much money for this new year, and I will earn them back one day. I will stop at the STOP sign, no over speed, and park at the right place. Thanks for keep reminding me, Jason and Jay.

p/s: keep smiling and think positive every time I face the obstacles and unhappy things.