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我这一生中最看不起的人就是像你这样的男人

虽然我不认识你 不了解你

但是你伤害我的朋友 就是我最不爽的地方

亏你还是我的学长

你知道吗 你这一生中做的最错的事 就是伤害自己的好朋友

你的女朋友无理取闹 是你们自己的事

何必牵涉别人进来呢

虽然这件事与我无关 我纯属想让你知道

你们的快乐 你们的幼稚 你们的无聊 却种在别人的痛苦上

难道你不觉得你很自私吗

说了一大堆奇怪的话 有人说喜欢你吗 有谁想知道你有几爱你的女人

拜托 请别那么恶心

你把整件事搞到你们好像没有错 错的都是她

她又何必受你们的委屈 自己扮伟大 自己逞强 还要强颜欢笑

你到底知不知道那种感受有多痛

你到底知不知道你们有多自私

再来 不是一句对不起 就能把你所做的事当作没发生

或许你第一次谈恋爱 可以理解

但是你所说的每一句话 都深深地伤害了别人

原因不是因为她喜欢你 而是在乎你这个对她来说的好朋友

如果你是个聪明人 你应该私底下和你的女人讲清楚 证明你EQ很低

我对那个女人没有comment 这件事只针对你

朋友对你来说算什么 请你告诉我

你到底有没有用脑袋想 你到底知不知道你讲的话是多么的愚蠢

你根本就没有资格 也不配做她的好朋友

有女人就不要朋友吗

那请你以后有事也不要找其他朋友

因为你很虚伪

我说的话很直 或许很伤

可是不会比你的更伤人

Hockey Game

I had so much fun with Younghwa today

we went to china market to have lunch after the classes

I love the chicken, duck, and roasted pork rice so much

p/s: hey Yonghwa, the food is called "duck", not "dog"

and yea, I brought her to Santan Village since I have promised her to bring her there someday.

The place is really amazing during the night time

we walked around and we just window shopping

I am kinda proud of myself because I did not buy anything

as least I can control myself of spending money

actually I am planning to wait until the coming week

there will be sale sale sale for the thanksgiving week

I am looking forward to it, and I will be going to shop with my dearest Yeongher Younghwa and her sister.

It will be so much fun. Ohhh Yeaaaah.

Just cannot wait for it.

We went to THE KEG for our dinner. It is a steakhouse and bar.

The atmosphere there is amazing plus the weather. It was so perfect.

We ordered one plate of steak with Red Pepper and Blue Cheese

actually we should order a glass of red wine together with the steak

and it would be so perfect.

unfortunately I am under 21 years old

we took photos we talked we laughed and yea,

I was so happy at that time and I almost forgot all those unhappy times

I know it is not my first time to over-stress myself for my studies my future and so and so

we made a joke that we are from Asia and developing countries

if you get the joke and you will definitely understand what we are trying to say.

oh come on, the restaurant where we went to have dinner is a kinda high class restaurant

and the waiters there are pretty nice and they served us well with friendly smiles

but you know what.......... maybe somewhere in their mind....

two silly Asian girls =='''

We went to watch hockey game right after the dinner

since it is for the extra credit for the computer science class

or else I would not have the chance to watch the live hockey game

the temperature inside the arena was freaking cold like hell

everyone was shivering and shaking

actually I am not really interested at hockey

but still the players look cool and handsome while they are playing the hockey game

the game is kinda rude and easily to get hurt

I had so much fun today

thanks my dear Younghwa

love you so much and hugsss

You ruffled at me last night with no reason

and now you are trying to talk to me?

354am

The time now is 354am.

I told myself that I should be strong and I deserve to be happy.

And I smile to myself in front of my long mirror.

I have made a big mistake that I should not violate it

I did not stop at the stop sign. It is a serious matter in the States.

The policeman did not give me ticket on the spot. He was being nice to me.

but I was told that I could receive the ticket by mail after few weeks. Oh my gosh.

My mood completely dropped.

Kevin said that if I do not sign the paper, and I would be fine.

so I texted to my friend who is a policeman and told him about this.

That is why I woke up at this time. He replied me that I would be fine since I did not sign for anything and I did not receive the ticket on the spot.

Everything went so wrong this few days. Hopefully everything will be getting better.

The worst thing was Kevin got into an car accident on the way back home.

Thanks God that he was fine. But his car was gone.

I know that he is kinda sad and he has a exam later. Hope that he can do well in his exam.

I prayed.

Thanksgiving is around the corner.

but I am looking forwards to Christmas more.

Maybe I should join the Black Friday, it seems interesting.

I gotta spend money again. Arghhhhhh.

2 more weeks will be the final week

and yeah, the semester is going to end. woohoo.

I gotta study hard and prepare for that.

Starbucks Starbucks Starbucks.

I love the atmosphere and there is a lot of sweet memories of the time I was with my best friend, and we always study and do our assignment together at Starbucks

and it makes me has the desire to study hard. Seriously I am not kidding.

Anyways good luck to me okay. Thanks.

I deserve to be happy. ; )

Everything will be getting better starts from this seconds.

I told myself.

Loser

I looked at myself in front of the mirror

I was wondering. I was musing about the life, which I am having right now.

I know I should cherish everything I have now and I really do.

I do really appreciate it.

Somehow I felt like I missed something

but I do not know what is that.

I looked emaciated in the mirror of myself.

Why I am not happy? I should be happy but not.

Perhaps I should go back to somewhere I belong.

I was trying so hard, but I failed.

I am a loser.

I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure.

I made mistakes, and out of control and at times hard to handle.

But if you can't handle me at my worst.

Then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.

-Marilyn Monroe

Have a little faith

I had a wonderful Saturday

Woke up at 11am and took a shower

I went to Starbucks to get my favorite beverage and read "Have a little faith"

The author- Mitch Albom has written 4 books, which are "The five people you meet in heaven", "Tuesday with Morrie", "For one more day", and "Have a little faith".

I had finished reading all the books and it made me satisfied.

After that I went to a friend's house with Yeongher and her sister to attend Baby Shower party.

Oh my gosh, there was a lot of Malaysian and Taiwanese.

The desserts are delicious and awesome.

I found out that there are plenty of parties in the United States, such as Bridal Shower, Baby Shower and so on, which I have never heard before in Malaysia.

Maybe the people here love to have parties and they created varied parties to celebrate.

Baby shower is a kind of party which we celebrate with the mother who is going to give birth soon, and we have a small gathering at her house, have lunch together, and play games together.

After that we went back to Yeongher's house

I had an awesome dinner with her family

and her sister cooked Bak Kuh Teh for us and it made me miss home so much.

I was so touched at that moment.

Besides that I wanna thank you my dear sister for the dinner.

and I had a great talk with you.

Yummy Yummy ; )

It was so awesome to study together with a friend at Starbucks during the cold night.

The moment I was thinking about you, Isabelle Choong Kah Hui

Do you still remember that we always study at Starbucks and we shared the beverage together

I miss you so much my dear.

Unfortunately the Starbucks was closed at 930pm

oh come on. Starbucks should be closed at 1am okay!!!!

Recently I fall in love to drive with the opened windows and the loud music during night time

it was so awesome and I addicted to it.

My life. My Future. My Decisions.

Blue Wasabi

the long board is cuteeee ; )

cool huh?

woohoo

one word can describe my feeling right now is "high". Ops, please do not think too much okay!

I'm so happy and excited due to plenty of reasons

and I know I eventually found back myself

I am who I am.

Last night I had a long talk with my dear YeongHer and it made me so released

and I told her all my feeling and troubles

Honestly, "say it out" is the best way to heal myself

I do not want to hold back myself anymore, let me do whatever I want, just once, let me be myself.

Mom, I know you love me so much. You do really care about me and want to protect me from getting hurt. Yet this is not I really want.

I am tired. I cried. It's hurt.

I woke up early today for the ACT test.

I took it without concern. Overall, it's still fine I guess.

but I'm pretty sure that the math part is pretty easy. Other parts I just simply did it.

By the way, it was not enough time to do all the questions.

I skipped my class today. I'm so sorry.

I went to Santan Village with my dear Yeongher

oh my gosh, the place is so amazing, plus the weather is so cold and windy

and it made me had a sudden urge to visit New York City

This was my first time realized that I'm in the United States since the weather in Arizona is pretty same with Malaysia-hot.

I could smell the taste of United States. The smell of States.

woohoo.. went to shop again. I know I should control myself from spending too much money.

We went to "Blue Wasabi". It is a sushi and martini bar.

The atmosphere there is super amazing and all the blonde hair girls and guys around us.

and the food is delicious and it was my first time to taste the blue wasabi.

I thought wasabi should be green color, yet it is blue color.

we took photos again and again.

Blue Wasabi

opsss.. 18PL

Starbucks time.

Thanks Younghwa.

You are the sweetest girl I have ever met.

Love you so much. hugsss

love ya ; )

Happy ending with Mi sedap and milo latte ; )

Green Tea Latte

Ice Green Tea Latte with cream on top

my favorite Starbucks's beverage ; )

hopefully I can get one now

addicted to it

most of the time, I tell myself that I can make it if I really want to.

but now, I tell myself that I should be weak.

I just want to be a little girl and need someone who can protect me.

I know if I cry out, my heart might feel better

yet I cry with no tears.